fakeapology

2007-11-23T12:45:00.000+08:00

today started out real bad.
i know she's tired.
but why does she has to vent her anger on me, me, me, me,me & ME?!
):

hafiz asking me about allowance, etc
make me sound so pathetic
(pulls hair)
sighs.

2007-11-22T20:33:00.000+08:00

okay.
so, today
was as usual, very ________.
urgh
my mum keep raising her voice everytime.
urgh /:
sometimes, i really wonder if she love me, (as in, i know she does, but...)
i think she love my other siblings more
pfffffffft /:

lets change the subject?
D:

i can't think of any, oh well, goodbye.

2007-11-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

eh fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurk.
/:
i feel like a cow/ dog.
URGH .
maybe i'm changing this blog to a ranting one.
i feel so left out wherever i go.
like **** .
seriously.
at home & even outside.
i'm not trying to be an attention seeker or something.
/:
i just feel .. empty ?!
people treat me as if i'm invisible or something.
wtf?!
im not a dog.
even if i am,even people give attention to dogs.
unlike me
things have been changing real bad at home.
& i mean REAL BAD.
my sis & bro is out to make me look _______ bad.
i know i am sort of.
even my dad thinks so? (i guess)
URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I FEEEL LIKE .........
)':
friends are like.
whatever lah.
i'm just too dissapointed in myself & a few of my dear friends.
(toooot, this sounds so emo, but i can't help blogging
what i've been going through & what ive been thinking about all these sleepless nights)

i treated you like one,
but did you ?
but i do know, sometimes, i don't deserve it.

& ohhhh.
how great
since i'm grounded,i can't go for bbq.
or even meetings.
URGHHHHH.
i just feel like going to langkawi right now,
die there or something.
i'm sure people we'll be happy about my death (yay!)
after all, i'm your dog who follows you around right?
i'm sure you don't need one /:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
my mum sense i have problems,
but how am i suppose to tell her ?
i feel left out everywhere i go?
even at home ?

):

2007-11-20T19:29:00.000+08:00

eh fork.
i'm grounded.
/:
the previous one was over.
& now i have a longer one.
ONE MONTH !
that means, it'll only end on the 20th of december.
Tooot laaaaaaaaaah
i admit it was my fault.
but.....
urgh nvm
/:

no more movies for me ):

2007-11-20T10:41:00.000+08:00

okay, so me,crytsal & mai went to far east yestd.
followed by borders,lucky plaza,ngee ann city, taka,far east & then to esplanade (:
HAHA.
suuuuper tiring /:
but of cos we had fun ^^

okay, this guy made us move, bcos we were beside the merlion
just cos he wanted to take pics of his other fello
china men ._.

haha, crazy auntie .lol

i like this pic cos, humaira's hait look like
afro. lol xD

merlion !
if u see closely, crystal's in it.lol

crystal with mai's shades ._.

mai with crystal's shades ._.

me in mai's shades. LOL!
hahaa, !

so, basically, i was crystal & maira's photographer ._.

lol, see ?

haha, again

& again

& again

& again

& again

& again

lol, candid.

HAHA.

housefliesss !

i'm waiting for the merlion to rawr .__________.

Lol xD

at the bridge :D

:D
ferris wheel & esplanade

got home near 10 D:
dead.
imagine being stabbed by the back by your own flesh & blood.
your siblings.
& yet, they pretended nthg happened.
wtf?
URGH.
i've not been talking from ystd night.
hurts too much /:
)):
i'm just super disappointed in them
doen't mean i'm the youngest, you push me around.
not only at home, outside home also /:
just hope my mum & dad allow me to go to the bbq this saturday ):

some random jiwang phrase ;
kau hilang bilaku tiba,
kau datang bila aku kecewa.
(true luh actually)

killing machine

2007-11-18T16:05:00.000+08:00

thanks to humaira & sis for reminding me not to care about what other people think
okay seriously, somehow.
humaira can replace my sis, (in a way)
not replace perfectly luhh. but they have the same characteristics :D
lol (:
i cooked fried rice just now.
kinda bad actually /:
haha
shoot, ive been drinking like how many cups of coffee.
causing me not being able to sleep.
HAHA

okay, anyways,
tomorrow is confirmed.
(hopefully we don't have a pathetic sum of people)
lol.
i sriously hope chee beng can go.
/:
i guess, ive been down lately, cos,
i don't really laugh that much.
i feel much better when i laugh everything out you see.
so, chee beng's the best candidate for this job
HAHA ! ._.
till here i guess
(i know i had alot to blog about, but i guess i forgot)
shu jun, ely,izyan,pure,azmee,hafiz, etc all not online
only me & maira.
oh yah, wth.
i can't seem to find any nice, attractive skins that
attracts my attention /:
SUPER ________.
Most of them are on christmas ._.

2007-11-18T09:27:00.000+08:00

eh, walau.
this seriously is killing me /:
though i'm tired, i can't force myself to sleep.
bro & sis is.
dad went out for fishing. will be back late.
mum will be home only at 4+
URGH.
i miss my family laaah.
yet, there are stupid & irritating problems that keep appearing.
/:
anyway, i miss chee bong ):
WTH, NO. the wholeeeee chee family !
SIGH.
& going to miss i_____a.
going for overseas camp.
cannot sms him/her to put me to sleep (seriously)
this is soo mundane.
only nad is online ._.
i can't wait for December :D
i'm soo bored it sucks /:

can you _________ just let me rest in peace ?
URGH !

Pisces:
The decision about how to tackle a
mistake can be made today. Don't look back.

(well, i did a mistake & i am looking back)

2007-11-18T08:25:00.000+08:00

(pulls hair)

someone ripped off my blogskin
cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ok, seriously.
i think i'm quitting blogging.
urggggggggggggh ._.

ya luh, give me some peace.
&,

thank you.
&, now. i need humaira's help reaaaaaaal bad.

& then we kill

& rule the world.

goodbye.

(this ain't a make up story,ass)

2007-11-17T19:53:00.000+08:00

OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
i'm super &^!@&% hungry !
THANKS TO NAD !
hahaha,jk. cos her pm on msn was;
" i want satay ! "
lol
i "ordered" with my mum indian rojak.
but, she'll only be home at 10+
so is dad.
my sis went out for her sec sch bbq.
Shu jun ! got azril! HAHA !
lol, anyway,
how about mac?
HAHA ! ya ryte, im sick of mac.
i ate kfc ystd .
cos, food at home was like _______.
the house's condition has been very bad lately.
my sis having her A's.
my mum was forced to change her shift to morning & afternoon shift instead of night.
all the houseworks are left to mostly me to complete.
she doesn't cook that often
keep eating out, or i have to cook :o
causing my hands to be burnt.
seriously !
cos of hot oil. & its obvious
not being vain,but i hope it goes away.
or at least doesn't hurt when I'm playing volleyball :o
sigh, i seriously hope mum changes back her work shift asap.
i can't stand being scolded & told off like almost everytime i see her.
she's like that when she's tired.
well anyway, of cos i miss her
& i apologize for being moody :o

oh whatever, i'm hungry.
*drools* (haha)

anyway, do you think i should cut my hair ?
it's suuuuuuuuuuper long.
HAHA !
see what i can do with it ?
0.0

haha, okay. goodbye
:D

2007-11-16T09:55:00.001+08:00

*breathe in, breathe out*
okay, i feel much better.
i hope those copy dogs are reading (rolls eyes)
anyway.
lets change the subject (:
i didn't go to tp today (for vb match)
though i seriously, die die wana go out.
but changed my mind.
i have no mood alr.
rotting at home sounds better (?)
i don't feel like going anywhere .
in fact, don't feel like going out on Monday /:

okay, goodbye.